I just wanted to hop on here really quickly to give an update on our infertility journey.
Hubby and I went into the fertility clinic early this morning for our second IUI. I had a follicle check yesterday and was surprised to learn that everything went as it should have to try IUI again.
This is my fourth medicated cycle since the miscarriage. The first was with Clomid and my lining was way too thin and I had 8 mature follicles. The next cycle was with Letrozole and the mature follicle was on my blocked side, so it wasn’t an ideal situation for an IUI. The third month was with Letrozole again and I ovulated really early. We ended up missing it completely. So, IUI wasn’t an option again.
This cylce, we did Letrozole again. My lining looked good and I had 2 mature follicles. One on each side. I was sure we weren’t going to be able to do an IUI this cycle either. But, I was pleasantly surprised. The doctor told me to use the Ovidrel trigger shot as soon as we got home and schedule an appointment for the next day.
I had hubby help me with the trigger shot. I couldn’t do it to myself. I get nervous and I wouldn’t be able to get the right angle. So, he did it for me. But he wasn’t all too happy about it. I’m glad he was able to get through it though. It stung really bad going in. So, I was really happy I wasn’t injecting myself.
Early Morning
It was a very early Saturday morning for us. We are both night owls and really enjoy being able to sleep in on the weekends. But, we had to be out before the sun was up to get to the clinic. It will all be worth it if we are successful.
We had to get to the clinic right when they opened so hubby could give his sample for the procedure. We then had to wait about an hour and half for it to be washed and spun to be ready for insemination.
Once everything was ready to go, I was called back for the in office procedure. It is super quick and easy. There is some very very light cramping. But it was all done in less than 5 minutes.
Now, We Wait
Now is the hard part…the two week wait. Two weeks from today is when I am supposed tom take a pregnancy test and update the clinic on the results. If it’s positive, I move on to regular blood tests to check my levels for a few weeks. If it’s negative, I stop using my progesterone supplement and wait for my period. Then, we start everything over again.
Addend Pressure
There is a lot of added pressure this time around. We know I can get pregnant with an IUI. Unfortunately last time, it was an abnormal pregnancy and ectopic. So, not only do I worry that this won’t work for us this cycle. But I worry that if we are successful, we could suffer another loss.
And while those are risks, I also have family who are adding all this extra pressure on me. They’re telling everyone about our IUI and basically talking as if I am already pregnant. And then telling me things that they think I should and shouldn’t do to prevent another loss despite our doctors not giving me/us any restrictions.
It’s just frustrating because I have zero control over anything for the next 2 weeks. And espeically won’t have much control over things if we are successful. I can do everything right and still not get pregnant. I could do everything right, get pregnant and still have an early loss. And while they have good intentions, it doesn’t help me at all. It implies that there is something I could have done and just adds guilt and stress where it’s not needed.
Going With the Flow
Despite the pressure and stress around the whole situation, I am trying very hard to stay optimistic. Frame of mind is important right now. If that means I need to avoid people for the next few weeks, then so be it.
My priority is to do everything I can that is in my control (i.e. hydration, supplements, balanced diet, etc.) and not stress over what I cannot control.
I just hope that we are successful and we can finally close the chapter that is infertility.